A Food Addict Seeks Help
I came across your web site whilst browsing about food addiction as a subject. I have tried to control my impulses from the earliest age I can think of regards my overeating. If my memory serves me correctly I would be around 5 years of age when I noticed it.
I know that my eating habits are killing me and I suppose deep down that's what I am hoping for:- to die in a manner that nobody would class as suicide, as this way of eating and being makes me so ill.
On the other side of the coin I feel guilty that I am not strong enough to resist these impulses. I get cross with myself, because people who know me think I am a strong, confident outgoing person who can cope with anything and is good to be around. The sad part to this is most of the time I am strong, until a dark cloud settles and the duration can be weeks and even months to it lifting. During this time I close off, and want to be alone and see people as little as possible.
I wonder if there is any effective treatment out there, because I know now that I can not go on like this. I want to live properly but don't know where to turn for help and assistance. I have had blood and allergy tests done before and the foods I binge on are the foods that I am intolerant or allergic to. For a time I can seem to clear my system out of these foods and feel better but I always go back.
I have always wanted to leave the planet and found it a strange place to be in. I have tried many, many times to alter my destructive patterns that have formulated what I have become, but to no avail and basically have decided that even though I do not like being here, I just do my best, but it is not working anymore.........
(Note from Althea: This person has received help and is well, now it is clear that being a womb twin survivor is a major cause of her food addiction.)